Kadie
I'm most passionate about nature, photography, and writing. My backyard is my sanctuary. Sometimes I get lost in my thoughts and I don't mind.
Is Anybody listening? Anybody out there?
It is November 29, 2011. I have not been on this site in a long long time. Like a year or longer, I just do not know. My life has been busy. I thought life was good, maybe I pretended it to be. Denial. Time has been moving in slow motion lately.
My life is a blur. So much lost. So much gone. So much taken. My love ones are lost. I am lost. Depression is a horribly dark place, a place I never thought I would be in- this place; I now seem to be stuck in AND alone!
I don’t want to be alone. Seems like everywhere I turn a door slams. Everyone is a liar, or fake. No one cares. Only use me and use me up then throw me away.
I am tired. I can’t sleep, eat, think. I almost cannot even breathe anymore.What does it matter? I said, I am tired! And I don’t want to be alone anymore.
Is anybody listening? Does anybody care?
The birds are at a smorgasbord at the feeders. I love watching them and love watching the kittens sit and watch them too. heeheee.
Springtime is wonderful.
Christmas is almost here…
I can feel it, I can smell it. I am getting excited. I love Christmas. This really is my most favorite time of year.
I do miss the kids being little bitty. Oh well time for me. heeheehee. Santa knows I have been a very good girl. I want lots of goodies this year.
Merry Christmas to all.
Bad dream
I woke up with a bad dream. Why does it always have to be bad dreams? Where did all the good ones go? I want them back. Please come back. Please.
Love is……….
“Love is a rare gift like the gold that lurks quietly in quartz or the secret spring that bubbles from the depths of the earth. It is hard to love someone who does not share your deepest hopes and dreams. Perhaps it is impossible. Even when love comes, it must be cherished or it will wither and die.” I read this in a very old book my daughter found.
I hear the words echoing in my mind.
